im listening to two songs

never been in love..by talib kweli

I know there's a first time for everything

First time I let her in my bed she got wetter then the perfect storm

That we weathering together and

This the first time that I've ever considered wedding rings

But first things first yo

I met her at the bar rolling with three wise men like I followed the star

There she is shorty bi coastal

Thick like bifocals, stacked like 2Pac vocals her body so loco

Jewel of the Nile so I'm romancing the stone

The rhythm is to the words and I watched her dance to my poems

The way she move them hips let me know in advance that she grown

I pictured it like Paris Hilton when she answered the phone, yo

Dancing alone because she extra fly

But I got good look so I catch her eye

Gave the rest a try now give the best a try

Leave your nest and I'll fly make you testify

Damn baby I know we got some haters and...

and smile by tamia

Sometimes i sit at home and wonder how it be if he had loved me truely loved me yes, i learnedAwhile ago that kind of thing it never happens for me, and so i go around and just pretend loveIs not for me i play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they wont see thatU never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, Lord know its killing me

So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok imLaughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on myFace...on my face singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la laLaaaa

Sometimes i sit at home by the phone hopin he might call me but he dont call me but then iRealize dreams come true arent for girls like me not like me, and so i go around with my headUp like it aint no thing and when the boys around with all my friends im into other things cuzU never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, lord knows its killingMe

Its not easy (thing to do) sometimes its hard to (face the truth) its not the life that iWould choose but what else can i do if he dont love me no if he dont want me im not about toSit around let myself go (gooooo)